Grand means big, or so that is what I remember from my days in school learning definitions. Or I guess it could be grande? Either way, we have a big deal coming. I haven’t written on here in a LONG time. But, in a week from now, we are moving. Leaving our sanctuary of Raleigh, NC and headed north. That’s all I can type right now. North. Cold and snowy north.
Besides that point, I haven’t had an out-of-state move in 35 years. In 75′ I was born in SC. Then we moved that same year to GA. After that, my father took a job and they moved us to NC. That was 1979. In 1997 I got all the rest of my crap out of my father’s house and moved in with my then-girlfriend and now wife to a small apartment. We moved from there in 2004 to our current neighborhood. But I haven’t experienced a large move in 17 years and not a full out move since the 1970’s. At that time I rode in a Buick station wagon. (think National Lampoon’s Vacation)
Within the last month lots of things have been going on. We were headed one place, then another and then another. From where I am sitting right now, I see 29 U-Haul boxes packed full. An empty hutch and a bare mantle. My closet has nothing in it virtually. My pantry has hardly enough to feed a family for more than a day. Fridge is almost empty. There are empty boxes awaiting more things in my garage which by the way, is in total shambles.
Throughout the whole process tempers have flared. I have questioned what the hell I have gotten myself into. My wife took a new job within the same career path. Me and the kids are along for the ride. Not much say-so for us in the ordeal. Now don’t get me wrong, I am the one who told my wife in the first place if she got a new job that she should try to look outside NC. I’ve been here a long time. And if you ask her, she would have told you ten years ago that I was going to stay here forever. And I thought that way a really long time.
Then I decided about a year ago that my kids needed better. We ALL needed better. Cleaner environment, trees, water, a fun place. We have been lucky and God has blessed us with this chance. A new opportunity to start over and fresh. In doing so we are moving into a home on almost 8 acres. There are trees, grass, a treehouse, and lots of outside room to roam and play. I haven’t had a “yard” since 1993.
I don’t have grand notions or illusions. What I do have is hope. Hope that it is all going to work out fine and be a positive thing for us as a family. My faith has been tested along this journey. Right now I still don’t know how some things are going to work. But I have to rely on God to get us through.